Archive for the ‘Keeping the Faith’ Category

Afraid to get in the bed with Christ

Saturday, June 9th, 2007

I am so afraid for Natalie’s wellbeing. It is not because she has gone off to Willis, Texas with her friend, Tori. And it is not considering the fact that she has an evil sister who steals her banking card in order to withdraw funds that she doesn’t deserve. No, the reason why I am afraid for Natalie is because she is still a Christian and she may remain a Christian no matter how much proof I can find to help Natalie break this harmful cycle. I want to be able to give Natalie factual reasons why Christ doesn’t exist and why he should not be worshipped. The god of the Bible is not good and neither was Jesus nor many other people in the Bible. In fact, I am so startled by this because I am strongly considering marrying Natalie and enjoying her as my wife. So, I want to make sure that before I get married - I am not jumping into a threesome with the evil God of the Bible. (more…)

Dharma, give me strength

Tuesday, May 1st, 2007

My friend that I mentioned that in order to see her, I need to go to church with her this Sunday. The reason is because her parents are (reportedly) assholes that believe that people who are not Christians are worshippers of Satan. I don’t understand why they would even think this is possible, considering that belief in Satan would require a belief in God. But, I’ve painted myself into a corner and I have to go to church to see her. It’s truly unfair, considering that I do not want to believe in such a repulsive religion. Especially, where they love to delude themselves that prayer would help. I can’t believe that I have support such an awful and repulsive religion. And a lot of it goes against the basic tenets of Buddhism.

Retrospect on a Sucky Year

Monday, January 1st, 2007

Looking back at 2006, here are my biggest successes and failures. No matter whether they are successes or failures, I have learned immensely from them and I am grateful for the wisdom that I was granted from these experiences.

Biggest Successes

  1. Entry into Canada - On August 31st, 2006, I have successfully achieved my dream of gaining more permanent status in this country as a student, rather than on a TRV. Granted, it expires on July 31st, 2007, but at least I have the most valuable thing in this world that will help my immigration. I have time.
  2. Obtainment of employment - I have successfully obtained employment at a non-profit organization. This makes obtaining a work permit and permanent residence much easier, due to the lack of a labour market opinion. A labour market opinion is the last thing I want due to the time it takes to acquire one and my possible ineligibility. Fortunately, the Province has a great nomination programme.
  3. Moved away from my family - I have moved so far away from my biological family. In fact, this makes me exceedingly happy, considering my family is full of assholes and I could not stand being near them anymore.

Biggest Failures

  1. Alberta Bible College - I am just going to write off the entire experience as a failure. Too many assholes, both in the student body and faculty. I am happy to be out of there but I am sad that they screwed me out of $400 for the chore requirement.
  2. My trust fund is completely depleted - To make it THIS far, I had to deplete the trust fund that my grandmother left me when she died. This was not the greatest option but I do not regret it, seeing as I could not have gotten this far without depleting it. Plus, I can always go to U of C when I get my immigration details all sorted out for permanent residence.
  3. Moved the blog around - I have moved around the blog way too much, breaking many permalinks and ruining my great page rank.
  4. I got wrongly canned at Valero - Okay, this bolstered my reasoning why I should immigrate to Canada, because oil companies have too much power. So much even to violate the laws that regulate labour.

My 2007 New Years Resolutions

Monday, January 1st, 2007

I hate the idea that people make resolutions that they have no intention of keeping only when the earth’s odometre rolls over. It seems that it is enough to make people believe that they have a new lease on life. Personally, I believe the route of change should happen throughout the new year, especially when one realizes it is needed the most. However, I have reviewed what I want out of life and this is what I have come up with:

  1. Gain a bit more notoriety on the web/in my new home - I would like to be as big as Bryan Veloso, Mr. Fab or Shaun Inman. My weblog has been getting a bit more activity since I have been writing more often and using traffic services like BlogMad, but that is not enough. I need to do more to get my name out there. I would also like to be recognized in Calgary for my blog so I am also going to write replying to more local news.
  2. Finish up Blackthorne - Blackthorne (for the uninitiated) is a themeset that I have been working on for the past month. I am confident that I can get it done and coded before February 14th, especially since I cannot afford the bus pass for this month so my mobility is going to be dramatically hindered. Doesn’t mean that I can’t go to crowfoot and cash in my bottles to buy bus fare to get to the college to return some books. I should probably do that on Wednesday though, it will save time and money in the long run.
  3. Get into a serious relationship - I would like to get into a serious relationship. Need I say more?
  4. Fully convert to Buddhism - I would like to convert to Buddhism and seek a path of reason and truth. Right now, I could still be considered a Christian that just doesn’t go to church. I would like to be so much more than that and I would love to convert to Buddhism so I can clean my mind of my past practises and strive toward a brighter future.
  5. Get my work permit - Nicholi, if you are reading this, please submit your company to Alberta Registries. Now.

Those are my five new years resolutions. This is what is truly important to me right now and I would personally like to thank you for reading through my sappy drivel but hey, it was enough to spice up my life.

What is the purpose of this blog?

Sunday, December 17th, 2006

Often I wonder what the purpose of my own blog is. I rant all the time and on numerous and sometimes, unrelated subjects. I get all mushy about someone and rant about them the next day. I basically share my feelings in a disorganized and incomprehensible manner. Basically, I believe that my blog has three equally important purposes.

The first purpose to my blog is to share my own thoughts, fears, loves, hates and experiences with the world. I have some acquaintances back in the states and I am certain that they probably want to know how I am doing and what not. This blog allows them the opportunity to read up on me and check up on my current state of being. Plus, it also allows other people that are going through what I am going/have gone through to know that they aren’t alone in their fight and struggle. They should know this and they should feel like someone has been where they are now.

The second purpose is to expose the flaws of this world in hopes of changing it for the better. Usually, when people are confronted with their own wrongdoings, they usually have the choice of fight or flight. Ron Frasier and Duncan Pringle have the reaction of flight when confronted with their actions. Instead of owning up to their misdeeds, they decide to remove me in hopes of hiding the problem once again. However, their idea will fail as I have decided to expose their actions numerous times on my blog. Eventually, when prospective employers or students google their names, they will hopefully find my blog and be reconfronted with their problems. They can either own up to their actions and take the road of recovery (a.k.a. the fight option) or they can keep running from the truth in hopes that they will never be confronted and seen for what they truly are (a.k.a. the flight option).

The situation at Alberta Bible College started when I decided to try to be friends (and possibly more than friends) with a girl named Miranda Littel. She was everything to me and I felt invincible when I was around her. I felt that she was the right one for me. Then, when I least expected it, the roof caved in and I found out her true nature. I found that she was an emotional mercenary. She only wanted to be around me to harm me and break me. So, I decided to write about it in my blog to expose her and hopefully have her confront her own problem as she read it. However, the administrators of the school decided to ask me to remove her name from my blog. I would not give in because I will not be cowled into forsaking my beliefs. Then, they wanted to label me as nuts and send me to a psychiatrist. WTF?

Eventually, they decided that my compliance was not helping their case to try to appear to justly remove me from ABC. They decided only a few days ago to disable my ability to renew for next semester. So, instead of being unable to face their problem and allow me to continue enjoying my right to Freedom of Speech, as it is defined as “freedom of thought, belief, opinion and expression, including freedom of the press and other media of communication” in the Canadian Charter of Rights and Freedoms, they wanted to ignore their problem and remove me from the college.

The third purpose is to give people a view into my life at the core. Basically, I am very emotional, confused and angry/sad at this point. I have no family that loves me and I am facing failure straight in the eyes. However, I know I must not run, because where would I run to? I have no real home. Home constitutes people to come home to. Home constitutes a mixture of good and bad feelings and experiences. What I left behind in the states wasn’t a home but rather a stop in my mission to find my home. I know I must continue to go forth and find my home, hope and family. And the only way I can find the third is via marriage. Maybe that’s why I am a little girl-crazy at this point. But I have my morals and ethics when dating and I know that I can’t marry someone just for my immigration or status in this country.

Addendum: FUCK Alberta Bible College.

Thursday, December 14th, 2006

Basically, I feel that there needs to be clarification for the article I wrote a couple of days ago titled “Fuck Alberta Bible College”. However, I do not edit posts once they are up for integrity reasons and to follow with my blog’s Code of Ethics. Once a post is up, it is up. However, I write this to hopefully eliminate any confusion about my words.

First off, the post “Fuck Alberta Bible College” was written as a criticism to the administration of Alberta Bible College and some of the faculty that decide to treat students rather poorly. I have very little respect for an organization that is supposedly christian and yet does something like that. I have met and conversed with many of the students and instructors at ABC and a good majourity of them do not share the malicious intents of a select few. The sole intention of this article is to have the staff and students take a good, hard, long look at the people administering their school and see their actions, exposed.

Secondly, I am not the only person who thinks this way, but I am the only person willing to publicly expose these people for what they truly are. I have conversed with others about ABC and they share an opinion with me. I would love to tell you their story but they told me it under the strictest of confidence. I will not violate that confidence that they have placed in me. However, the horror stories of Alberta Bible College are numerous and quantity and I honestly hope that one day, they will allow me to post these stories.

When searching for sources for this article toda, Prime Minister Abe wrote a segment in his online e-mail newsletter that really struck me:

My First School Lunch in 40 Years

Hello, this is Shinzo Abe.

The Japanese character meaning “life” was chosen as the word most representative of 2006.

On one hand, the birth of His Imperial Highness Prince Hisahito opened our eyes again to how a new life can bring happiness and hope to our own lives, giving us another chance to appreciate the preciousness and value of life. But on the other hand, this year we have also witnessed a number of heartbreaking incidents of children taking their own lives — lives that had come into this world with the blessings of everyone surrounding them — after being bullied.

I visited an elementary school in Tokyo last week in hopes of getting a feel for the educational environment children are in today and talking to them in person.

It was my first visit to an elementary school in the 40 years since I graduated from my own. Over lunch, I had a chance to hear, in their own words, what children are really thinking. Many shared with me that they enjoy extracurricular activities and sports. They also asked me unpretentious questions, such as, “As a child, did you have a goal in life?” These questions reassured me that children have hopes and dreams for what they want to pursue in the future.

I was a bit worried that the children would tense up with the press crew in their classroom, but the close bond the class shared and the warm smiles they gave me as we talked impressed me strongly.

I have kept in close touch with my elementary school friends, meeting with them frequently even now after 40 years. Exciting times spent together with friends, even if you occasionally argue, will become a precious memory later in life. It is my hope that children will possess the kindness to go over and talk to another child they see all alone. I was able to convey this message during my visit to the school.

I will never stop reminding all children that there are people who care about and love them, and that bullying is a shameful deed.

In cooperation with local communities, I will enhance even further a system through which children can seek help or advice even at night and on weekends and holidays. I will also set up places all over the country where children can play and study with a sense of security so that they will not be left alone after school.

I have renewed my resolve to do my utmost so that our children do not lose their smiles and will be able to achieve a bright future that fulfills their hopes and dreams.

[...]

Deliberations in the Diet are reaching their final stages as the current session draws to a close. The Abe Cabinet’s top priority agenda is rebuilding education. I will devote all my energy to reconsidering education from its basic principles as we take the final steps toward enactment of the bill concerning the Fundamental Law of Education.

Prime Minister Abe’s words ring true. And yet, strangely enough, Japan has a better set of rules for their education system than Canada or the United States does. These rules are called the Fundamental Law of Education.

In article 6 of the Fundamental Law of Education, it states: “Teachers of the schools prescribed by law shall be servants of the whole community. They shall be conscious of their mission and endeavor to discharge their duties. For this purpose, the status of teachers shall be respected and their fair and appropriate treatment shall be secured.” This should be true throughout the world. However, meager pay and other issues that have arosen the last decade have made people believe that they can and should get away with anything - including treating certain students, possibly the ones who need the lessons the most, with mockery and contempt. To treat certain students like scapegoats and discriminate against them. And then to try to make them feel guilty when the student tries to expose the instructor for what they are.

In article 10 of the Fundamental Law of Education, it states: “Education shall not be subject to improper control, but shall be directly responsible to the whole people.” In this situation, the education programmes at Alberta Bible College are run by people who wish to pervert the education from it’s once noble and fine goal to something that is wrong. This is an act against the public interest and it cannot be tolerated.

Roommates never get any better, they only get worse.

Friday, November 24th, 2006

Dusten may have been annoying as hell, but at least he isn’t as bad as Doug is. Just so you know, Doug is the person doing the construction work in the house and he may very well be living here once the construction is complete. Basically, he has a VERY short fuse. And unfortunately, it does not appear that Shush (my landlord) will be getting rid of him any time soon. This is a bummer because he is a real douche bag.

However, my other two roommates are really great. Huda barely says a word and keeps to himself, but what little I see of him - he is friendly. And Rob is a very nice and understanding guy. He even took my HP Pavilion laptop off my hands. How about that, talk about nice. The only problem I see is Doug and I am hoping and praying that he really does get evicted. (more…)

Probably going to get dooced at school

Tuesday, November 21st, 2006

Talking with Mr. Pringle today got me thinking about how well the school takes freedom of speech. The college is actually very hypocritical and I know at least one person that sees this as well. My blog is a mind dump, more or less. You can write about the things that are going on in your life and it helps you feel much better. When comments come, it makes you feel that you are not alone in the struggle that is life. It is a slice of my life that not everyone sees and they get to view the world that I live in a little differently.

I don’t blog about anything, or share opinions, that I wouldn’t feel happy talking about up on a stage in front of friends and strangers. This is why I am not anonymous nor do I wish to be. My name IS Kyle Korleski (no, that is not a pen name) and I live in Calgary, Alberta for the time being (if I were to move, it’d definitely be to Halifax or Vancouver). I have a loud, outspoken attitude that some people find to be very acidic. I’d love to be stopped and told how much my blog rocks/sucks. I love writing this blog because it gives me a chance and a forum in which to vent my anger, disgust and discontentment with the world, while at the same time celebrating the wonderful things that happen in my life. It is very nice to actually get comments on this blog, and no, the viagra spam comments do not count in this. (more…)

Fall Ministry Experience - Living la Vita Broke-a

Thursday, October 19th, 2006

From the 31st of this month to the 3rd of November, I will be out of my house doing a Fall Ministry experience. In other words, Kyle Korleski is going to be on the street for four days. I am not absolutely sure of what will happen during this time. But if you see me looking like a homeless person around Calgary about this time, I think you will know why.

We will be staying at Central United Church. Basically, there will be a separate room for both males and females. I also heard that the men’s shower was broken last time so we may or may not be forced to take “French showersâ€?. I hope that the showers are working because being in a room with 20 guys without showers is NOT fun. Also, considering that the floors are as hard as cement and I will be denied a couple of luxuries like my laptop, I think I might go postal (No I won’t, but I am just saying).
I heard there was going to be a presentation from the Calgary Police on prostitution. That should be… uh… interesting? Yeah, I really don’t think I am at any risk to become a man whore anytime soon. And considering that HRSDC does not consider that even a vocation, there is no chance in hell that I would do that.
I have also heard that we will be panhandling on the street. Okay, that’s a little scary but I think it will be an interesting experience. I was told that it is to help me see the “kindness” of the world around me and all that shit. I already know the kindness of the world around me, I don’t need to hold a sheet of cardboard to tell me that the world can be a bitch. Hell, just by reflecting on the way Miranda treated me, I know that there is still cruelty and injustice in the world.
I am going to be taking a camera and I will be taking about 6, maybe 8 batteries JUST in case. Basically, battery life in this camera sucks and I may or may not be able to take many shots. However, I promise you that I will upload them via Flickr. Also, Mr. Nyrose and a few other people will be going to Belgium so I pray for their own safety.

Sorry about not blogging so often!

Tuesday, May 23rd, 2006

Sorry about not blogging recently. I have to collect $2,000 by the 19th of June or I won’t be able to stay in the country. -_-

So, right now, I am doing as much designing, coding and forum management as possible to raise the money in a reasonable timeframe.

Anyways, I heard from a reliable source that the beta for Microsoft Office 2007 is now open (you can get it here) and Windows Longhorn Beta 2 is making its way to the public, so you should keep your eyes on these.

The new ICQ 5.1 has launched today and I’ll give you my opinion on it, after I try it out of course, as well as the new 2007 Microsoft Office. However, I am afraid that this version of ICQ will be no different from the most recent versions of ICQ (the ones with “Xtraz”). Essentially, with skinning of the ICQ Client gone (as ICQ Plus has been outsourced and only ICQ 2003a will run well with it), the ICQ client isn’t as customisable as we think it is.

I got around to watching a couple of those Ranma 1/2 tapes that I am selling on eBay (the listing can be found here) and it is surprisingly good. However, since they were VHS, they were dubbed and not subbed. And they were dubbed POORLY. The voices sound like they have no emotion what-so-ever. I’d bet the subbed would be a bit more lively, but then again, I have always preferred subbed over dubbed. But if you prefer dubbed over subbed, this is a great collection.

I looked on Amazon.ca for Ranma DVD box-sets but they were running at $110.00 a boxset on average (You can see the Amazon.ca listings here). WTF?! I wish I could afford this…

Okay, I think that’s about it. Have a great day!