The Darkest Evil

Yes, I hate Calgary, Alberta. Every girl I met here is evil. I’ve been stood up, abused, misused and I plan to get out of this city as soon as I get my PR card. And yes, I will try Edmonton first before considering moving to another province. Of course, I’ve heard good things about British Columbia and I am going to try to find someone there. If I am unsuccessful, I will try Ontario and other provinces. However, I must try Alberta’s other big city, Edmonton, first before leaving this province. After all, I cannot truly claim that it would be a serious “quality of life” infraction if I have not tried Alberta’s other cities. And this means that I would have to intend to settle in this province, as per the rules of the PNP. (more…)

I did not get to meet Chelsea for our date because she had a family emergency. This kind of made me a bit angry and confused, but I will explain the events that transpired in full detail. The following post may seem a bit ego-centric but PLEASE understand the circumstances behind it. On valentines day, my date did not show. But she had her reasons, as explained in the last paragraph. So please note that I am going to write this in a chronological fashion so you can see what was going on in my mind. Keep in mind though that since this is in chronological order, she does not appear to be innocent until the last paragraph so please read the whole thing before commenting. (more…)

I am about to go out on my first date and I am excited, nervous, anxious, happy, paranoid and a lot of other emotions that are just indescribable. But I am worried about a few things (obviously). Maybe it’s just paranoia but I really need to keep my fears in check and cool it. (more…)

I just got an en masse e-mail from the Dedicated Otaku Anime President as soon as I woke up today. Appearantly, there are problems with a few of the male members of the club harassing other members. In addition, this may very well spread to the club’s annual anime festival, Otafest. While I know that logically, my actions were not the ones that spurred this e-mail, I can’t help but think maybe my desire to find the person I am destined to be with is overriding my motives and intentions. And then I thought that I am probably not the only person with this problem. There are many otaku males out there that cannot seem to get a date and I happen to be one of them. So I looked at my previous actions and applied common sense and what I have for you is this article. (more…)

So I visited Meghan and Matt Saturday. Basically, I wanted to see them considering that I don’t have a bus pass to see them often. They are both my friends and I honour their opinions and I appreciate my time spent with them. Getting THAT out of the way, I am going to state what happend on Saturday. Plus, they offered to chip in for my return bus fare. This was good because my funds were taking forever to drop into my bank account. So, since I had to drop off an invoice from a small startup that I am working with (not saying the name, it is confidential), I thought it would be great to roll on over to see Meghan and Matt. Unfortunately, I was wrong because there was another person that stopped by. A woman so evil that hell itself spat her back out. I am referring to Meghan and Matt’s friend Kim.

Let me explain my first encounter with Kim. I first met her at the Mustard Seed Fall Ministry Experience while we were packaging food bundles for the homeless. She was a complete bitch to me and I found every moment I spent with that woman to be like drinking sulfuric acid. Not only that, but there was another person there so there is someone to substantiate my claims. And to top it off, her hostility toward me was completely unwarranted. I didn’t post that after the Fall Ministry Experience due to the fact that it was a minor point in the fall ministry experience. (more…)

This Thursday’s Fuck off and Die Thursday is about those women that abuse the online dating system and basically lure men into contacting them only to fool them. I usually refer to this type of woman here as an Emotional Mercenary or simply as a Mercenary but when they abuse an online dating system, I refer to them as Online Dating Whores. These women are a consummate evil to the Internet, providing false hope to the desperate. I just recently got targeted by one (as you can read by my previous posts) and I have been targeted by several throughout the course of my stay here in Calgary.

I refuse to believe that all women are like this and I truly believe that there is someone out there for me and when I find her, she will treat me with the respect and dignity I deserve as a human being. I am just starting to believe more and more that I am NOT going to be able to find her in this city/province. Why can’t I just fund a woman that is looking for a mutually loving and respectful agape relationship? I am not interested in a solely Eros relationship and while a philia relationship is nice, I don’t want that at this time of my life.

Okay, so I got burned by another girl. Yeah, this was NOT cool. But the cool thing was that she was a little less rotten than other girls that I have talked to online. I am just so tired of this and I would just like to find someone that I can hold and embrace. Someone that I can walk life’s path with. Someone that will accept and appreciate me for everything that I am. Someone that will love me with an agape love that I will love them with. You see, I have never been loved by another human being. Not my family, no girlfriends and no reliable friends in this world. I am not very popular because I refuse to conform to other people’s standards.

I am not in the mood to talk to many people. And if you do wish to talk to me, you had better be able to withstand many minutes, if not hours, of ranting about how hard it is to find someone of the opposite sex that will love you. About how everyone with a loving family or close, reliable friends is blessed. I am not in a mood to pretend to be happy. Forgive me if I refuse to respond to your private messages or what not, I would not be in a good mood anyways. I am also writing a whole number of posts for four days (8 posts) so I don’t have to respond to comments. It’s evil, I know, but I am not in the mood to play comment police.

To my faithful clients: You will receive everything you ordered. Plus, I will remember this when you want another project so you will very likely save money on your next project. However, when life continuously shits on you, it does not allow you to focus on your work. It’s only two days more in many cases and I apologise for the additional time required. I just need time to centre myself.

I often wonder to myself why I seem to attract the dregs of humanity in every aspect of my life, be it selecting a college to go to, trying to find a relationship or something along those lines. I am getting tired of it. Why can’t I just find someone that accepts me for everything that I am? I feel like I am perishing considering there is nothing stable in my life nor anyone stable in my life. I’ve only held contract level web design jobs and I’ve never really had a relationship, nor friends that stay friends for long. I never had a stable home nor anything in my life that I could cling on to.

I just want to find someone that will love me, accept me for everything that I am and allow me to be me. Why is that so hard? Why is finding someone so fucking hard? I want to know!

Before I go to sleep tonight in an attempt to reprogramme my biological clock, I want to let you know that I don’t just get my inspiration from other people for this blog. A lot of my inspiration comes from random events that happen to me on a daily basis. I am going to tell you the story of how I got completely lost trying to turn some cans and bottles in to the recycling centre in Crowfoot. You see, I needed $2.25 for the bus fare and I needed it before tomorrow because tomorrow is the day that Mrs. Dypvik-Galts cuts the cheques for students that still have a balance on their accounts.

The road to Crowfoot was not too long and certainly not arduous. In fact, the Ranchlands are not too far from the Crowfoot Crossing. I walked there, prepared my bottles for recycling and then did that and got about $2.55 for my empty bottles. W00t! But the road back was arduous, because I went the wrong way to get back. At first, I thought that I was going the right way and I thought I recognized some of the houses. But when I saw the sign that said “Citadel”, I knew there was a problem. There was an Esso gas station so I walked in and asked for directions back to the Ranchlands. He told me to go down Nose Hill road and it’ll run into John Laurie Blvd. Of course, I know that John Laurie Blvd. crosses with Ranchlands Blvd. and thus, will get me home.

So I trudged along Nose Hill road until I got to Sarcee Trail. I was getting tired and thirsty. I was wanting a nice cool glass of water to drink so I could replenish my resources. I came across an old man and I asked him for some help. He said that I can take a shortcut by going down Sarcee Trail. The hitch is that there are no sidewalks. I thought that this would not be a problem so I took it. Boy was I wrong! I kept stumbling and I nearly fell flat on my face. However, I noticed that if I climbed to the top of the slope, I would have a much easier trip to John Laurie. So I made the climb up and for a time I was right. However, there were a couple of patches of soft ground that almost made me fall off the slope and into incoming traffic. (more…)

Looking back at 2006, here are my biggest successes and failures. No matter whether they are successes or failures, I have learned immensely from them and I am grateful for the wisdom that I was granted from these experiences.

Biggest Successes

1. Entry into Canada - On August 31st, 2006, I have successfully achieved my dream of gaining more permanent status in this country as a student, rather than on a TRV. Granted, it expires on July 31st, 2007, but at least I have the most valuable thing in this world that will help my immigration. I have time.
2. Obtainment of employment - I have successfully obtained employment at a non-profit organization. This makes obtaining a work permit and permanent residence much easier, due to the lack of a labour market opinion. A labour market opinion is the last thing I want due to the time it takes to acquire one and my possible ineligibility. Fortunately, the Province has a great nomination programme.
3. Moved away from my family - I have moved so far away from my biological family. In fact, this makes me exceedingly happy, considering my family is full of assholes and I could not stand being near them anymore.

Biggest Failures

1. Alberta Bible College - I am just going to write off the entire experience as a failure. Too many assholes, both in the student body and faculty. I am happy to be out of there but I am sad that they screwed me out of $400 for the chore requirement.
2. My trust fund is completely depleted - To make it THIS far, I had to deplete the trust fund that my grandmother left me when she died. This was not the greatest option but I do not regret it, seeing as I could not have gotten this far without depleting it. Plus, I can always go to U of C when I get my immigration details all sorted out for permanent residence.
3. Moved the blog around - I have moved around the blog way too much, breaking many permalinks and ruining my great page rank.
4. I got wrongly canned at Valero - Okay, this bolstered my reasoning why I should immigrate to Canada, because oil companies have too much power. So much even to violate the laws that regulate labour.